been some time since i had the urge to pen down my thoughts.

so much has happened; new experiences, new people, facing stuff that comes with age
been going along with the flow, and before i know it, its time to take the reins
i know what i want, and im definitely ready to put in the effort for it

i guess its inevitable this happened.. i was just lying to myself and refusing to face it
i already told you, but you refused to listen to me. and yes i already felt the drift at that time
but i am happy for you, my dear friend. just remember that i'll be here no matter what

nobody will ever understand the things i do and the choices i make in life
you used to understand me best, but now you've brushed everything away and made assumptions like everyone else
i dont owe anyone an explanation though
i dont keep tabs on you, so why are you making it seem like ive put others before you?
you probably dont understand how important a friend you are to me.
all these thoughts, i wont say them to you because i still cherish this friendship. i believe you are still the person i knew from a decade ago
lets stop and take a look at this situation k. i wish things were like before